When Stuck becomes the new normal.

I’m so tired of just barely being okay.

I remember when I was more than okay. I can almost even remember being GOOD. Phenomenal. Growing. Flourishing. LIVING.

If I reach into the dark, farthest away corners in my brain… I can feel it. When did I stop breathing, tasting, and hearing? How can I be ALIVE, but barely living? I see, without feeling… and oh, I FEEL… but I’m not really seeing. 

I don’t want to just get by… I don’t want to just exist. I used to shine & now I’m just a waste of space. I just need to get my spark back. 

I’m cold & alone in the dark. 

This is not what I was made for. 

I remember when I was more than just okay.